Cheryl625

here I sit after weeks even months of not visiting. I have not blogged or anything for a while.  While I have remained on my weight loss journey it is just not going well for me.  Ugh!!!!  I think I really need to clean up my eating, not eat as many processed foods.  That would probably be my number one thing to over come right now.

While others will argue that the fact that I am now 35 has messed with my weight, I beg to differ.  I don’t feel like just one day will change my body that much.  I mean come on you expect me to believe that one day I’m 34 and my weight is managable and the next day on my birthday my body says switch, time to struggle!  Not!!  While I will accept that yes my body is changing I don’t feel it happens like that.  I have been at goal for over 2 years and, still am, just not my personal goal.  I think it is my processed junk eating self that has caused me my problems.  I really started to get discouraged because I was walking between 3 and 4 miles a day doing situps by the hundreds and lifting weights and was not doing my self any favors.  Sure I was toning up but that was the only change in my body.  I took measurements and not an inch did I change.  I did this for about 2 1/2 months!  WTH???

I will not let this get me down, I am continuing on with my journey and trying as hard as I can to eat more fresh and get just as much if not more exercise.  I  will win this “battle of the bulge”!

I always knew I had good boys and they just keep on giving me reason to think this.  Just a few short weeks ago my oldest son won the school spelling bee, I was/am so thrilled for him.  Then last week he comes home and tells me that his teacher had nominated him for something, he had no idea what for though.  So yesterday I went to the post office to check the mail and to my surprise there was a letter stating my child had been nominated to go to Washington, D.C. for the Junior National Young Leaders Conference.  He was chosen based on his “scholastic merit, maturity, and strength of character to represent his school.”  It will be kind of expensive but there is no way I can let this opportunity pass him by.  I am so happy for him!  I have always know that my husband and I were good parents, but in the past there have been those that tend to think differently, all I can say now is “in your face”!  Ha!  We are obviously doing something right.   My focus now is getting the money needed to afford this honor.  I just know that my other two boys will be just as great, they already are.  I have three of the best boys in the world.  I love them all and hope to continue to raise good and respectful people.  Thank you boys, Mama loves you so much! 

Ok so I just finished reading Jen’s blog and thought how that is sort of how my hubby is.  Never does he ask me how it is going with WW.  Even though I am and have been at goal for the past 2 years he still never asks how it is going, I guess he can see it is going good.  I am keeping the weight off.  He has the thinking that you don’t talk about weight with women.  Caveman!!!  He also never gives me compliments.  He will however, tell my friends that I look good, but never does he tell me.  Why is it so hard for hubby’s to be supportive, don’t they know we are in the end doing this for them as well as ourselves?

My hubby has pretty bad gout and is only 34 years old, which he doesn’t even try to take care of with diet and exercise.  Mind you I do cook healthy meals for the most part for the family, but he has no concept of portion control.  When he cooks, much like Jen’s hubby, he fries and loves gravy!  I have tried to get him more involved by inviting him to go walking with me, but he complains of knee pain, this is where his gout is located, and just sits on his a$$!  We all have bikes and still he refuses to ride.  We bought him a more expensive bike than mine, I have a trailer to haul my 3 y.o. in and the other 2 boys can both ride on their own, and still he will not go.  What gives.  A dr. told him that if he doesn’t take care of his gout he is looking at a total knee/joint replacement within 10 years, remember I said he was 34.  We have 3 boys and little Mama can’t teach them football or baseball, I am more into basketball and riding horses and things that have to do with animals.  Ugh!!!  I guess I will have to smack him upside the head.

Ok rant over!  Like I said Jen inspired me, I only wish my talks with Hubby would turn out like hers.  Maybe if I keep trying!

Ok it has been a while since I sat here and wrote any of my thoughts down. So I thought what better time than now when I doing my best to refocus and get going once again. 

At my last weigh in I was up 2.6 pounds, which in itself is not that big of a deal considering I am at my Weight Watchers goal, and there are things beyond my control that contributed to this gain, but to me it is.  So I have decided that I will work the program a little harder and get the weight back off, plus I have been getting my booty in gear and working out here at home.  My Mother gave me “The Bean” for Christmas and I am going to put that thing to good use.  Boy does it work those abs, plus on the days that I go to her house I am going to use her “Red” machine.  Then when I am no longer a walking icicle I will get back to the park for my walks.  (Kim, I do not see how you and Crystal can do it, I freeze here at home I can not imagine walking at the park.)   I know a lot of my friends look to me for motivation  (right now I see Kim as a motivation) and how can I be of any motivation when I am slipping up and letting 2.6  pesky pounds creep back on.  So even though there are some of us who have hit our goal we look at all different people as motivation I guess.  I know I do.  I look to one of my buddies for the motivation to help with my self confidence.  She just has so much that it is unreal, you know who you are.  Anyway I am going to end this blog here.  I plan to blog more later.

I’m sitting here almost at my personal goal and I have to wonder, why is it so hard for some people to be happy for those of us who have lost our weight or even be happy for those who have lost a big portion of their weight.  Take for example, my husband, although I know he loves me and has loved me and thought I looked great at my heaviest he never tells me that I look good or that he is proud of all I have lost.  He does come from a family with some large women, but I just want him to tell me that I look good.  He has told a few of my friends that he is proud of me for what I have done but never has he told me.  What gives?

Then I have a buddy who is loosing like crazy, and it is so hard for her to get much positive feedback from those that “love” her most.  She is working to loose the weight for herself and she is happy for what she has done but she has so many negatives in her life it is just unreal.  I know she will over come the negativity because the fact that she has lost so much already shows that she is STRONG.  But along with the weight she has lost a few so-called friends. 

So once again I have to ask, “Why is it so hard for others to be happy for us who want to make a lifestyle change and be healthy and improve our lives?”  Why?????

Ok, here is my plan for the day.  I figure if I write it down I will stick with it.  Usually, I have no problem sticking to my plan, but today I know will be a bit harder.  I have a birthday party to go to and they will be serving pizza.  Ugh, that is a major red flag for me.  I so love pizza.  But my plan is to have a salad, 1 slice of pizza and be done.  I will not have any cake because I really don’t care for birthday cake!  I will drink plenty of water before I go and keep chugging while there. 

Ok so yesterday was my official weigh in for the month of October!  Yuck!!!  I did not do so well.  I’m pretty sure that I know which areas I can say I failed in.  I hate to use the word “failed” but I guess if the shoe fits, wear it!  I am going to have to UP my water and get back to my walking.  The weather here has been so so, although I should not use that as an excuse.  I am going to get my rear in gear and get these 3 pounds off!  I will!

Ok so I am days away from having been on Weight Watchers for 3 years.  I can not believe I have been working this program for so long!

October 11, is my “thin”iversay!  I am so proud of my self, I have been so successful with this program.  Not only have I been working the program for this long but I have been at goal for 2 years!  It works, great! 

So tomorrow is my official WI for the month of August! I have been walking and doing the plan and drinking my water.  I hope it shows on the scale.  Regardless, I know that I am doing great, I am walking I am eating healthy not to mention I know I am loosing inches! 

Well last night was my official WI and I was down .4! I am determined to do better this week. I have too!  I know I am not the number on the scale and I am loosing inches right now with my walking and exercising.  So therefore, I will keep it up,  and hopefully “ramp it up!”